实习医生格蕾第五季

好吧！我承认！我承认我很脆弱！我承认看到第五季的最后两集哭的撕心裂肺！
我跟彤彤和大姐说，这部剧用一个字概括就是“乱”，用三个字（“第一次”知道意思的笑笑，不知道的飘过！）就是“婚外恋”。真的，彤彤说或许是因为美国的开放大家都很“who cares”的态度。但不是，就像心理医生说的那个洛城的丧偶的帅哥男医生(抱歉，忘记他的名字）只是用性来逃避，来转移注意力。或许他、她、他们、她们都是这样!
但是在这里我看到mark竟然想安顿下来，而不是继续做hook！（但是我很不喜欢他跟little grey在一起，不是很配：而且她应该还喜欢O'Malley才对，难道他退出剧组她就轻易淡忘？）
而meredeith终于在eq方面有了重大的成长，当然这种成长总是与各种变故有关，从一开始的第一季第一个镜头就注定要在一起的一对终成眷属。
O'Malley他真是个不幸的小子，暗恋meredeith只换来一夜激情，冲动之下跟callie结婚，发现爱的是izzie结果证实只是最好的朋友的那种爱，被little grey暗恋还浑然不知，申请去当战地医生结果为了救人被车撞成“无名氏”，现在生死未卜，不过十有八九是要挂掉啦！
izzie对病人的感情永远热忱而质朴，当然除了denny那一次。一直打工让自己上学，上学时怀孕把孩子给别人抚养（这条线索还有待展开，是考验她与alex的关键一步，推测她在第六季不会挂！），找到true love，即使是她幻觉中的denny回来也最终不会动摇（当然，一点点还是在所难免，人之常情啊！），她在第五季倒数第二集的自白堪称经典，将会与最后一集一起永远的留在我的电脑中。
alex看起来倒是很能把性和爱分开，他的父亲，他的家庭，还有很多未解之谜。他结婚典礼的独白真实不做作！（最爱的还是burke的那段，可惜...个人觉得他一定会回来，以考验yang和那位）
cristina野心勃勃，每天第一个到医院为了抢到最好的病人，竟然从未逃过课，与教授有过3年的密切关系，被抛弃后打击很大，尽管从未给她正面描写但，从她小心翼翼的开始新一段感情就可以预料到，但是就是这样的她才能造就登上医学杂志封面的burke，才能让已经出离麻木的XX（抱歉，再次忘记他的名字）说出：“I Love U.”
Bailey我超爱，就是太爱哭，抱着Shepherd哭，抱着Richard哭，诶，压力太大啦！估计第六季会和老公离婚，迎来新的春天，她是目前为止还没有乱搞过的！希望她能保持，当然只是希望。
Richard也是纠结在Adele和Susan Grey之间，诶，天天在医院工作到深夜，难怪只能...
好~回到撕心裂肺的话题！之所以会变成那样，可能还是我的心境跟alex很像，眼睁睁的看着心爱的人即将无疑地自己而去。在这里，我心中的这个人是我的爷爷，还记得他做的萝卜条汤，还记得他给我讲的朝鲜战争，可是今年过年的时候，我去看他，他瘦弱的身躯吃力地从沙发上起身，朝我一步步挪动，当他喊起我的名字时眼睛里已经充满了泪水。霎时间，我才真正的意识到他老了，不再能骑着自行车去遛狗，不再能在院子里种我最爱吃的绿色无公害小柿子和开满我家大水塘的粉色荷花。我知道，他不久就会离开我，我知道，我真的知道！那种无力感！我对他死亡的恐惧就已经让我战栗如此，我不敢想象...
妆花了，不写了。

从大一到大五。
从第一季到第五季
以前一直觉得老友记是个奇迹。
十年是个奇迹。
现在发现，时间不是个奇迹。
岁月如梭才是个奇迹。
好在，我们都一直在成长。
喜悦，悲伤，苦难，尴尬，疲惫，犹豫，愤怒，无奈，这一切都让我更加感激上天赐予的生命。
谁说只有快乐的人生才值得度过？

                            --------2010-4-25

It feels so good to stay at home all day watching the shows you like. I can't complain about anything right now. 'Cause I actually feel really good, even my toughest anxiety becomes forgettable. I've finally got the chance to finish GA Season 5 today, and after that something drove me so hard to recollect the show from the very beginning as well as recollect the pieces of my life.
　　
　　When I first started watching GA, I've never thought it would mean this big for me. Some shows just not only the entertainment of our life, they're like friends who knew you at the first place and still they're always there giving you a shoulder to cry on. They carry our memories, histories and feelings. GA is the one for me. Maybe it's not the greatest show ever, but for me it's significant. I've been growing with it. I've been growing as every character does. I've been growing with a heart dark and twisty.
　　
　　It is true that when something begins, you generally have no idea how it's gonna end. The future is never what we've imagined.
　　
　　Back from the beginning, Meredith was asking her good looking one-night-standed partner with amazingly attractive hair to leave with a corny embarrassment revealed on her smiling face; Christina was confidently asking about being "selected as the best intern" and whining about Izz's former part time job as a model; George had never gave up being nice or getting close to the others, but he was taken as a joke; Izz was told to do the rectal examination and can't help making her face when she stuck her fingers into the ass of a patient; Doc. Baily was wearing her mushroom head which is subject to very popular criticism even today; Here comes Burke, the perfect guy who resolutely left his fiancée in the wedding ceremony and us in the middle of the show...
　　
　　We can't tell who's the best at the beginning. Meredith lost in the hospital; George panicked in the surgery room being watching and betted on by the other interns, and he got a creepy name "007"; Izz got Baily pissed off by interrupting her nap for a patient who needs antibiotics rather than the reason that someone was dying; Alex was just an arrogant rude jerk.... And I've been there before, panic, complain, lose, freak out, be silly, cocky, selfish and inconsiderate... or even worse. I can't tell whether I can handle my life rightly and bravely at that time neither.
　　
　　None of them have imagined they would become family of each other; None of them have predicted those pains, struggles, changes or those life and death things injected in their life; None of them have realized and expected those massive magnificent changes happening everyday around them; None of them have ever thought they would become this strong to handle the pain, the loss and departure. Just as what Izz said at the last "you don't recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you're right in the middle of it." We don't recognize anything until we're actually experiencing the most of it. Their life keeps growing deep. So does mine. And I'm growing deep too. I don't run away like before, I face things, I stand up on my own, and I handle them. GA is showing and witnessing the histories and changes of my life too.
　　
　　In GA, hospital is a battlefield, and doctors are soldiers. They don't surrender, because they can't. They've been working their ass off for saving lives, or not that great, just for avoiding mistakes and killing. But what they're doing is sacred. All of the stories going on in this show carry only one clue ---- take the time to treasure. I'm gonna quote the last voice-over in the end of Season 5, and I'm gonna ask myself and everyone else who reads this article:
　　
　　Did you say it? "I love you. I don't ever wanna live without you. You changed my life..." Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work toward it, but every now and then, look around, drink it in. 'Cause this is it. It might be gone tomorrow.


【拼写错误已修正，见谅】

虽然我一直抱怨因为人员变动，编剧和剧组一直乱七八糟，故事也是乱七八糟，感情线乱七八糟，整个就是乱七八糟的一部戏么发展到第五季。

虽然完整地从第一季到第五季我看了两年，第四季和第五季开头我是反反复复说服自己看来看去一定要看下去说服了两年。

虽然我刚开始也觉得mere长得不美，后来也觉得alex不应该扯出一段rebecca，再后来觉得o'malley不应该和torres结婚，更受不了他和iz的友情变成艰难的婚外恋，再再后来，我忍受不了lexie，忍受不了忘记burke要和hunt交往的yang，忍受不了torres变成les。

虽然一直说着不看了不看了怎么都受不了这么拖沓冗长的说教剧了。

然后我还是看完了。

看着亲爱的george那样穿着军装出现在电梯门口，哇哇大哭的我明白，尽管这部剧这么糟糕这么混乱这么不受控制，因为这部剧这么混乱这么糟糕这么不受控制，所以才这么难舍么。

果然啊，整部剧我连一个彻底讨厌的人都没有么。

每个人都有弱点都有不讨喜的地方，发起疯来谁都不受控制。
说狠话抢手术拼命伤害别人的心，互相攻击着一起成长起来。
那些一起走过来的人尽管没有总是在自己需要的时候以自己希望的方式出现，彼此的隔阂也从未彻底消失过，但是这些混蛋果然就是没有办法被别人代替么。

“好青年都在过屎一般的人生。”
GA五季其实讲的是这个吧。

能像friends那样欢欢乐乐过完整个年轻时代是个童话吧。童话里我们相亲相爱，即使背景不同爱好各异但是有爱就能在一起，永远永远。
GA里的你们即使向着同样的目标和未来努力着尽还要被这样那样莫名其妙却合情合理的生离死别一再击打。

我们努力了，但是失败了。
我们相爱的，但是分开了。
我们承诺过的，但是谁也没有履行。
我们原谅了彼此，但是没法再见面了。
我们相信的，常常欺骗了我们。
我们质疑的，有的时候却救了我们。

骂爹骂娘才够泄愤的剧情啊就是人生么。

而在这样狗屎般的生活里我们貌似成熟了勇敢了坚强了理智了却永远没有办法改掉那些悲剧根源的臭毛病。
mere的逃避，yang的冷酷，izzie的不理智，alex的不坦诚，o'malley的太温柔，那么多次那么多次给了机会你们不改，活该死的死悲的悲么！

mere和derek真的就能no running从此王子公主般幸福生活下去么？
听说iz没死还和alex吵架了么。。。
yang没有了burke也从burke的阴影里重新活过来了么？
反正o'malley离开了，我都不在乎了。
谁离开了都不是GA了，少了谁都不是magic了。
也许第六季变好看了么。。。但再好看的戏也不应该叫GA了。

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标题是给george o'malley童鞋的。
他是mere的好朋友，他是izzie的好朋友，他最爱的两个女童鞋都成了他最好的朋友。
他是magic里唯一一个没有通过第一次intern考试第二年补考还遇到医院漏水事故的童鞋。
他活泼好客的爱尔兰家人没有人真正理解他努力想成为外科医生的理想。
他总是忙忙碌碌却被人轻视，alex和yang总是用各种辛辣嘲讽刺激他。
他在vegas结婚的前妻torres后来变成了女同。
最后的最后，他为了救一个素不相识的姑娘，被卡车撞得头骨碎裂连mere都认不出来。

bailey的儿子是以他命名的。
izzie摇摇晃晃走在红毯上是他伸出手扶着她走完的。
在mere手心努力写下007的他的手被mere紧紧握住了。

他如愿穿着帅气挺拔的军装和留着美丽长发的izzie在AGH那个神奇的电梯口那样相见了。
这不就是最美好的结局么。

       在这一季Alex长大了，成了一个男人，一个丈夫；Meredith几乎变了个人，不再阴暗而怯懦，变得阳光而勇敢；Yang开始谈起纯纯的恋爱，学会表达，学会说I love you!Izzie终于经受了死亡的考验，看到了她的王子......一切似乎都不再纠结，但美剧永远不是偶像剧，George的死就像晴天霹雳，那个最镇定，最努力，最踏实，最善良，最可爱，最向上，性格最健全的George就这么莫名地没了~毫无征兆......
       看这么多季格蕾，看那么多人的离开，告别，只有这一次，让我那么难过。突然回想起第一季，他们刚刚进医院，经历那么多人那么多事，我仿佛也跟他们一起走了好长一段，一回头，恍如隔世......

“Did you say it? 'I love you, I don't ever wanna live without you, you changed my life.' Did you say it? Make a plan, set a goal, work for it, but every now and then, look around, drink in it. 'Cause this is it, it might all be gone tomorrow.”